Thoughts on...

Law && morality.
They should be similes.
&& in some cases, they are.
Yet increasingly often, they're not.
Why is this?
I strive to comprehend.
Why can't those who rule over us follow their consciences && do what's right?
&& why can't we as the people in a democracy make a stand for what is right?
Just take a look at our generation.
Full of lazy, unambitious, apathetic people.
&& it's those of us that are going to work hard to make something of ourselves that will suffer.
For we are going to have to support those who can't be bothered to support themselves.
Those who are so ignorant that they think they deserve to be supported.
Why must we put up with it?
They shouldn't be able to put us through that injustice.
Law && morality.
It saddens me more each day how those things just don't mix anymore in our society.

From Deep Within...

So I've decided to take some risks and maybe post a few things that are from a bit deeper within me that I have been posting. So please don't be too harsh. (:
This is something I wrote a while ago. But can still be true on occasion. Here it goes:

When you asked me if I was okay and I said no
I didn't really mean it
I knew you didn't believe it
I felt your hurt
Hoped you felt mine
You are the reason
The reason I'm so hurt
So confused and betrayed
So broken and afraid

I've fallen into pieces right in front of your eyes
Yet you didn't see it
It was your hand that took my heart and broke it beyond all repair yet you didn't feel it

Now I can feel nothing
Nothing but pain
Now I can see nothing
Nothing but darkness
We were so close
But now so far
I've put a canyon between us
So you can't break me again

Today you didn't bother
Asking if I was okay
I guess it doesn't matter
Things will never be the same.

Laughter

I love to laugh.
To feel happiness bubbling up inside tho the point that I can't contain it && it overflows.
That's what genuine laughter is.
Overflowing happiness.
I laugh all the time.
Does that mean I'm always happy?
No, for I have plenty of sadness in my life.
It just means that I am able to push that sadness aside && look at the good in life.
&& laugh.
Always laugh.
Because what's life if you can't have fun?
So do it.
Make me laugh.
Make my day.

Time

It's a curious thing.
It moves so slowly,
Yet so quickly.
If you look at the small picture,
Such as a week,
It seems so slow.
But if you look at the big picture,
A year or a semester,
Time has flown by.
It's the same with change.
When you look at the day to day,
Everything seems the same for the most part,
While when you look further back,
The differences will make you marvel.
I guess it works kinda like life.
You have to look at the big picture to better see how things work.

Thinking about a lot of things, such as...

Peace.
Everyone wants it, but few actually have it.
Why is that?
Maybe we're looking in the wrong places.
Instead of looking to the source, some look to the future. && how is worrying about the future going to give you peace?
Some look in the past. But when you do that, you will look on mistakes && things you should have done differently && wistfulness is hardly peace.
Others still obsess about the new. But if you worry TOO much about getting everything done in this life, that won't bring peace.
Sure, seize every opportunity to live, but don't get so wrapped up in trying to live to the fullest that you actually miss out on life and the simple joys it brings.
Peace.
Everyone wants it, but few actually have it.

Bipolar

That's kind of how I feel right now. On the one hand, I'm so extremely happy because some things are just going so right in my life and I love it. I just heard the sound of my little brother's laughter as I was writing this, and the sound made me smile. Sometimes you just love the sound of other people's laughter.
On the other hand, I'm sad and a little remorseful. A friendship that means a lot to me seems to be fading away. And for someone who values their friendships like I do, that's a sad thing. Also, I'm in a situation that I know is going to end badly, but I can't stop myself from getting into. Or maybe I could, but I just don't want to. Because maybe that would hurt even more than the situation ending badly. Either way, it's getting to the point where it's too late to back out.
And finally, on a completely different topic, curiosity. I am so curious. It gets me in trouble quite often, and I have a feeling that it will be getting me in trouble again in the near future. Because I wonder what if. I'm sure others may not complain, but it's not always a good thing. I'm not talking dirty or anything like that, don't worry. Just a child-like curiosity at the what-ifs of life. And the curiosity burns inside me. But I know I shouldn't find out. Because when one thing leads to the other...

Depth Perception

Ever known that someone cares about you, but wondered how much? I have. I mean, you know that person cares, and you know how much you care about them, but sometimes, that just isn't enough. Sometimes you wanna know how much. And not just in words. In actions. And maybe, you know that they care, but not in what way. And you would give aynthing just to figure it out.
I guess I don't have a whole lot to say about this, except that everyone's been in this situation before, so I'm sure you know what it's like.