Bipolar

That's kind of how I feel right now. On the one hand, I'm so extremely happy because some things are just going so right in my life and I love it. I just heard the sound of my little brother's laughter as I was writing this, and the sound made me smile. Sometimes you just love the sound of other people's laughter.
On the other hand, I'm sad and a little remorseful. A friendship that means a lot to me seems to be fading away. And for someone who values their friendships like I do, that's a sad thing. Also, I'm in a situation that I know is going to end badly, but I can't stop myself from getting into. Or maybe I could, but I just don't want to. Because maybe that would hurt even more than the situation ending badly. Either way, it's getting to the point where it's too late to back out.
And finally, on a completely different topic, curiosity. I am so curious. It gets me in trouble quite often, and I have a feeling that it will be getting me in trouble again in the near future. Because I wonder what if. I'm sure others may not complain, but it's not always a good thing. I'm not talking dirty or anything like that, don't worry. Just a child-like curiosity at the what-ifs of life. And the curiosity burns inside me. But I know I shouldn't find out. Because when one thing leads to the other...