Flashback

So today, for some reason I've been thinking about the past. Not the past as in a few years ago, but all the way back to those innocent years. And to think about it, I had a fairly uneventful childhood, aside from moving around a bit.
Most of my childhood memories somehow involve my little brother. I guess that's how it's supposed to work with siblings. Partners in crime and all that. I remember playing in a mud hole around the back of the house, being told not to do it again because it got mud on the house, then doing it again and almost getting spanked for it. I remember him falling out his window (thankfully it was a one-story house), burning his leg on the recently used lawn mower, and begging for a puppy every day until he finally got one. I remember a lot, yet at the same time, so little. Sometimes I wish I could go back and visit a day or two of my childhood and be reminded of those innocent, fun days.
Sorry for those of you who got caught up in my little trip down memory lane, but hey, this is my blog and I can put whatever I want on here. So if you don't like it, don't read it. But props for those who do(:

Are you Thankful?

It's that time of year again. The turkey, the fall colors, the feel that Christmas is right around the corner. Yep, thanksgiving is this week.
I guess it's been on my mind a lot this week, but I've been thinking about what I'm thankful for. So instead of making a wish list, I'm going to make a list of things I'm thankful for and why I'm thankful for them. It's a goal to be less self-centered and to be more oriented on how much I have and how much I can give.
So here's my list:

-God: For giving me the life that I have and so much more.
-My family: Being there for me and providing for me through thick and thin.
-My friends: What can I say? You guys are amazing.
-My house: It may not be a mansion, but it's enough for me.
-School: I'm given the opportunity for a free education.
-A Job: It may not be fun, but it helps.
-My Health: I'm still alive and moving, which I am incredibly thankful for.
-My Church: I love the people there and what they mean to me.
-Freedom: Most people don't fully grasp how much we're given with that.
-Traveling: I may not have seen all that I want to, but I've gotten to do some cool stuff.

So that's only ten things. Yes, I could have a lot more, and yes, I could go into specifics, but I think that will suffice for now.
From, My State of Mind

Trouble, Trouble, Trouble

Sometimes I ask for it.
Sometimes I look for it.
Sometimes, yeah, sometimes, I think I thrive off of it.

I'm not sure how this happened.
I'm not sure where it's going.
I'm not sure, no, I'm not sure, if I want it to go away.

I think that I want it to stay awhile.
I think I want to explore my options.
I think, yes, I think, I'll keep it going for awhile.

I know this could end badly.
I know someone could get hurt.
I know, yep, I know, I want to get a reaction.

From the State of Mind...

What do you do when the thing that you want most is the one thing that you have avoided your entire life because you know it's only going to get you hurt. ...Or will it?

Lack of Muse

So I know that I haven't been keeping up with blogging like I should. But when the level of exhaustion kicks in, my ability to reflect on all things deeper is seriously lacking. Therefore, I haven't exactly had anything to post lately. What do you do when you temporarily lose your desire to do anything but survive and sleep? That has basically been the cycle of my life lately. Survive, sleep, repeat. Not fun, but rather necessary for the time being.

Whoops

So I got busy and never did get around to my fifth self revelation. But hey, better late than never, right?

I've been exhausted lately. I feel like I'm busy all of the time, and while the business is good because it prevents my thoughts from getting the best of me, it can also be bad, because I feel kind of burnt out. It's quite a dilemma. In part, this is not only because I'm burnt out, but because I know that I have no space in my life to add anything else. And at the risk of making some of my good friends very upset, sometimes I just need to do things for my well-being. And I hope that is understood.

Self-Revelation #4

I am addicted to Dr. Pepper.

Ah, sad but true. I don't even necessarily have one every day, but you best believe that I do everything in my power so that I do. It's just my weakness and I'm not afraid to admit it. I know it's bad for you, but hey, at least I'm not a chain smoker, right? Or a raging alcoholic, drug addict, etc. And I know you also shouldn't make excuses, and I'm not. I'm just saying that it could be worse and I could be drinking like five a day.

Alright, so not my deepest self-revelation, but not everything in life has to be deep, right?